Saturday, 27 December 2008
Perfect 3 days by going to a shitty, busy, noisy, claustrophobic Shoreditch club. Our blissful Christmas Eve, Christmas Day and Boxing Day seem like they never happened. It's good to see people but being in such a setting makes me feel anxious and also I can't hear properly sometimes which adds to my anxiety and unease.
I can't really socialise with people on this level any more and must accept it and do what I feel comfortable doing even if it seems anti-social to other people. Those few who understand me will understand. I'd rather be alone in my comfort zone than put up with this for the sake of having half an incomprehensible paranoid conversation....